#self
#self was one of those songs where the muse really HIT. We sat down one day randomly and just made the beat, wrote the lyrics and recorded the initial vocals in one session, with no sense of time.
It was I think in June/July 2020 when we started it. The time was hella chaotic, confusing, depressing, strangely exciting in an anxiety-filled kinda way… it seemed like the world was on fire, and there was nothing we could do about it. Protests against racism & police violence, yet a pandemic keeping us inside. The mainstream mass media was going absolutely crazy, while some of the most extremist, ridiculous, misinformed underbelly alt-right underground media was reaching straight out from the depths and catching swaths of unwary people who just didn’t know what they really needed at the time. The division felt like a virtual civil war 2. Yet, thanks to lockdown, most of us were acutely aware of every development the media dubbed worthy.
But simultaneously on the other side of the coin, there was a sense of unification and empowerment we’d never quite felt before. Like there were also a huge amount of people sick and tired of systemic oppression in all its disgusting, subconscious (and overt) forms. And they/we were making it KNOWN. We were all using the same social tools - it was about finding the truth through the noise, noisy violent noise louder than ever.
Guess we just felt like we needed to make some noise too. And we’re going to keep speaking truth, as we learn and from within.
Fun fact: the verses were originally supposed to be sung by Josh because he wrote the melody, but he wasn’t able to sing some parts (no matter how much he practiced). So Corinita sang them instead. Teamwork, baby!